Him~

he is too perfect for me~
he seems too far for me~

i just can see him far away~
and through his photos~

when i walk cross the basket ball curve
my eyes are always finding him

when i saw him, i smiled~

i can't even speak when i met him~
i can't even breath when i heard his voice
i can't even see him because he is too shine

can i like him?
can i luv him?

but
i realized... i couldn't get him~
he couldn't be mine~ because he is too perfect~



oh DAMN~ am i falling in luv with him?

Do i? am i? Did i? Should i?

it's have been 9months since i broke up with u
i'm still wondering why i did get into relationship with u

now I'm alone
no....I'm not alone because loneliness is always with me

i say i do need a boyfriend
i do need someone who care about me
i do need someone who i can rely on
i do need someone who love my attitude not my appearance
i do need someone who love me and i love him

yeah~
i do need all those things

but...
one question comes out in my mind

do i really need a boyfriend?
do i ready yet to heart broken again?
do i ready yet to cry again?
do i ready yet to lose my love?

NO...i dont think i ready yet to get a boyfriend
maybe because of you
maybe because i do enjoy my single life

yeah~ maybe~

I'm not a bulletproof

I took a chance
I took a shot
And u might think I'm a bulletproof
But I'm not

I'm sick and tired of this
U tell me that u love me
Then u cut me down
And I need u like a heartbeat
But u know u got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when I see u're around

Yes, I remember what u said last time
And I know that u see what u're doin to me

But now u r different
Now u have changed
Tell me why..
Why does have to be like this??
Tell me why..
Cuz I don't understand

Well,
I get so confused and frustrated
Forget what I'm trying to say
I'm sick and tired of ur silence
I got no one to believe in

You tell me that u want me
Then u push me around
I need u like a heartbeat
But u know u got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when u're around

Tell me why
Why do have to make me feel small??
Tell me why
Why do u have to put down my dreams??

I take a step back
Let u go
I told u I'm not bulletproof




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From Someone To Someone Else

Someday...

Walk away from me - Dont look back...I'm falling far behind you. Pushed along to find another way. Just turn away from me - Dont come near ...There is nothing i can do now. But hope that you'll come back to me someday...

Someday u will cry for me like i cried for u... Someday u will miss me like i missed u... Someday u will need me like i needed u... Someday u will love me but i wont love u...

Someday u will call me, and i will not answer... Someday u will reach me, and i will not be there to hold... Someday u will search for me, and i will not be found...

Someday my prince will come...

I promise someday u will regret losing me and u will think back and say, "Damn, that girl really did luv me"

Someday u will know that i was the one for you...

At night, i hugged my pillow and dream of u...i wish that someday I'd dream about my pillow and I'd be hugging u...

Someday someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with onyone else...

I keep telling myself that i dont miss u and that i dont love u...Hoping someday i will believe it...

If there is really SOMEDAY, when will it come my way?

Sorry, i just can not~

for the everything that i have done, i dunno what to say~
for him...
i dont hate u, i did like u...
but, when the time passed day by day...
i just felt that was something missing between us...

we just know each other through the MSN, friendster and facebook~
i just felt nothing...i could not feel the feeling that can make my heart beat fast...
i could not with u anymore, because u couldn't give me the feeling that i wanted...

all the things that i gone through with u was nice
but, its still something missing~

i dun want give u a hope that can make u feel that i'm giving u a chance...

just let it go~
i can't ask u to forget me, because that is ur feeling...
i'm not asking u to forgive me, because i dont think i'm wrong...

maybe, u will ask me "why u can forget myself easily?"
although u din ask me, but i know this question ady came out in ur mind~

now i give an answer~

i didnt forget u easily, its just because all the things we did seem not real for me~

=.= =.=

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

*cuma pengen triak =p*

Pieces of My Past~

Rich***~ u r the one who i loved...because of u, i have learned alot of things~

i said forever u said goodbye~ u left me alone...

Should i smile because we are friends when i meet u or cry because that's all we'll ever be?

Nic*****~ thank u for being my dear~ u have taught me to be mature~

we just couldnt be together just like u said~ i'm happy that u be honest with me :)

As****~ my forbidden luv...u r the one who nvr give up...u were my cloud~ i was ur rainbow...

but, couldnt be ur rainbow~ u said my rainbow is too shine for ur cloud~

we just couldnt together~ coz of the reason that we have known~

i know that u can find me in next life :)