Forbidden Love~

i still remember the day i left u...it was the day i hurt u... I didn't cry when i left u...but inside of my heart was crying. U never cry in front of myself and that day was the day i saw u cry.

The tears dropped from ur eyes, just like the blood dropped from my heart...both of us know that we could not together...and i know that u were keep trying ur best to prove that we could...

Our relationship was like a war...we were keep trying to win this war...But, at the half way, i gave up~ i'm tired...i just know we couldnt together...because of that i dont want to hurt u more than that...

I know ur feeling just like mine...

U said to me that u lost me just like a bird lost the wings...ur phone have no other things...ur phone is full of my photos...ur eyes is looking at me even u closed ur eyes u still can see me...

I just can loving u in my own way~

I asked u to forget me...but u said u just can not...u will wait for me until i got the one i loves than u just leave me...

At the same time u said these out, i cried~

Babe...both of us know, we could not together in this life...will we be friends or be strangers that know each other well???

Babe, can u find me in next life? will u know where am i?

and...

Can i be ur brides in next life????

For the one who i loved~

I told him to lie to me. he smiled and said "i love u". Out of all ur lies, "I LOVE U" was my favorite. I never know how strong i am...until being strong is the only choice u have. People said love is blind. Yeah...love is blind for those who have eyes...but love is eyes for those who are blind...

I'm sorry if i hurt u...but, i just want u to know that i love u...i really really do...

When i closed my eyes...i see you...i feel you...if i cloud live closing my eyes. Somewhere between our talks, stupid little fights, and all our jokes is where i fell in love with u

Every time i look at the keyboard, i see that U and I are always together. And you broke my heart...but i still love u with all the pieces. I can go left or i can go right. But i have nothing left, and it doesn't feel right

Once upon a time something happened to me. it was sweetest thing that ever could be. It was a fantasy, a dream come true. It was the day I met U. You hurt me more than i deserve, how can u be so cruel? i love u more then u deserve, why am i such a fool?
Wanting u to love me is like wanting a snow in a summer~

How can i forget u when u always on my mind? How can i not want u when ur all i want inside? How can i let u go when i can't see us apart? How can i not love u when u control my heart? Behind my smile is a hurting heart. Behind my laugh, i'm falling apart. Look closely at me and u will see, the person i'm...isn't me...

The worst feeling is not being lonely. It's being forgotten by someone u could not forget...
Should i smile because we are friends or cry because that's all we'll ever be?
I miss ur smile but i miss my own more...thanks for acting like u cared

My DeaR :p

Before, i asked GOD to give me someone special to love. I found u then i lost u. I asked GOD why and he answered, "But my child, the one u asked for asked for somebody else."

I try to be a rainbow in ur's cloud. I wish my eyes could speak what my heart feels for you, coz my lips can lie on what is true. But my eyes couldn't, coz even if i close them i could still see u.

When life put me in tought situations, i will not say why me...i will just say try me.

Can i say i love u today? if not, can i ask u again tomorrow? and the day after tomorrow? and the day after that? coz i'll be loving u, ever single day of life.

I said forever, but u said goodbye...

I hate to see u happy with somebody, but i surely hate it more to see u unhappy with me. One night i looked at the moon and the moon told me, "why dont u leave him if he makes u cry?" and i looked back at the moon and said, "would u ever leave ur sky?"

Sometimes i just wish u can understand my feelings...Sometimes i wish i was blind so i don't have to see u with her...

I know, i'm not alone...coz loneliness is always with me. i wish i could find a way to disappear...

I asked myself, do u even care what i'm going through? do u ever hope it's me when ur phone rings?

You taught me how to love but not how to stop...i miss u...

You might be out of my sight but never out of my mind...

Every night, when i'm alone, when everyone's asleep, i cry coz of missing u...thanks for being tears in my eyes, atleast i can lose you before u lose me...

I'm Lovin' It~

ohmygod~
DAMN LUV MY PHONE NOW~

Boring~~~~~~

OhMyGod~

it's ady Friday~
regular classes starting soon~
>,<

and i'm happy that i passed all subject this semester~
hahahaha~

Haizzzzzzz~

she read his blog today~

she shouldnt read~ why why why??
because i'm confusing now, f*ck!!!!!!!

what should she do~
yeah~ she is a bad girl~
she has broken so many guy's hearts~
and she is still herself~

she still a simple girl~
a girl who are waiting for her prince~
who afraid of lonely~

she have known he is still thinking of her~
but, she have broken his heart~

and now
she is asking for a forgive for all of the guys
whoever have heart broken~

Trip to INTI-UC :):)

23 August 2009
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we went to 福安宮~ because 2moro i'm going back to INTI~
dad asked mum to bring us go there~
and it was rainy day~
we were waiting for the rain to stop~
and as usual~ took photos :D



24 August 2009
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i went back to INTI =.=
with my sister and my parents~



aaaarrrrrgh~ i just enjoyed my holiday for 1 week only =.=
actually it was nice, because got alot of people from my hometown went to INTI study this semester~

we reached Malacca around 1.30pm~
damn tired~
after we have lunch~ we straightly went to Nilai~
the INTI Bus took us to Allson Klana Hotel first~
and i was staying there 2days with my parent :p

ohya, My friend, WiNNi also :p

after took shower~ we went to GIANT and were having dinner at KFC~
what a tired day~

25 August 2009
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i woke up at 7am =.=
damn sleepy~
we have to get ready~
because the INTI Bus came around 9am to pick us up to INTI-UC~
here i'm~ back to JUNGLE~ and that was the first time my sis saw INTI-UC~
the new students was so busy with their things~
check in to Hostel, sit for EPT, and bla bla bla~

again, what a tired day :)

26 August 2009
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the result of EPT test for my sister have come out~
she got 130~ thank god, i tot she will get 120 :p

and after she enrolled, we went to MPH~
coz she need to open bank account and took photo for her ID card~

and i went to RHB bank with my mum~
yeah~ finally i got my ATM :D:D
and we went to GIANT after that~
back to inti and having lunch at bakery :):):)

27 August 2009
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i enrolled~
and i have pass all subjects :D:D:D
thank god~
i tot i will fail my MKT241~

and i went to RHB bank with my sister for transfer money~
my parent went to GIANT~
after from bank, we went to giant to find them~
it was raining~

around 1, we ady back at INTI
having lunch at Dining hall~
and all parents were going back~

and DAMN~
my sis's roommate made me wanna cry~
she was crying~
ohya, she is simas's cousin :)

My HoLidaY :D

i'm enjoying my holiday :)
so nice babe :)

19 August 2009
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Finally, finally, finally!!!!!!
finally i get what i'm waiting for~

NEW PHONE~

yeah~ i got Nokia 5730 xPressMusic :)
I love it damn much~

20 August 2009
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today got basket ball tournament~
simas join that tournament~
but, that tournament not nice at all~
coz most of the players are newbie :)
i got see that tournament with selly~ actually we din see the tournament~
our eyes were looking around find some lengzai :p
hahahaha~


21 August 2009
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i wake up at 12 pm~
DAMN


22 August 2009
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My cousin b'day~
My younger cousin~

she ady 5 years old now :)
and she is going to get another sister or brother :)

her mum just made a small party~
can not say small party~
just a small celebration :)

and one funny thing~
i dunno what happened with my fatty sister
she dun even come to her small cutie cousin's b'day~
hahahaha~

and i discovered~
2more days~ i'm going back to jungle T.T

My HoMeTowN~

16 August 09
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i went back to my hometown with simas and secil~
the first i wanted when i got back to my hometown is my NEW PHONE :)
at 10am~ we went to Malacca first~
and reach there around 11.30am~
hahaha~ and so many people that day~ the ferry almost full House~
and damn stupid ferry went to my hometown around 3pm something~
we reach hometown around 4.30pm~ *Indonesia time*

and at nite, my hometown got "PAWAI OBOR"
so nice u know~
hehehe~
it make me flashback to my senior high school time~
oh god~ it was nice that time :)


17 August 2009
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today is a historical day for all of indonesian~
why???
today is national day of Indonesia
64th National Day~

I AM FREE~

I'M OFFICIALLY FREE NOW~

INDONESIA I'M COMING~~~~~~~~~~~~

btw, 13th of August was secil's 18th b'day~
i will upload the photos as soon as possible~