Sorry, i just can not~

for the everything that i have done, i dunno what to say~
for him...
i dont hate u, i did like u...
but, when the time passed day by day...
i just felt that was something missing between us...

we just know each other through the MSN, friendster and facebook~
i just felt nothing...i could not feel the feeling that can make my heart beat fast...
i could not with u anymore, because u couldn't give me the feeling that i wanted...

all the things that i gone through with u was nice
but, its still something missing~

i dun want give u a hope that can make u feel that i'm giving u a chance...

just let it go~
i can't ask u to forget me, because that is ur feeling...
i'm not asking u to forgive me, because i dont think i'm wrong...

maybe, u will ask me "why u can forget myself easily?"
although u din ask me, but i know this question ady came out in ur mind~

now i give an answer~

i didnt forget u easily, its just because all the things we did seem not real for me~

=.= =.=

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

*cuma pengen triak =p*

Pieces of My Past~

Rich***~ u r the one who i loved...because of u, i have learned alot of things~

i said forever u said goodbye~ u left me alone...

Should i smile because we are friends when i meet u or cry because that's all we'll ever be?

Nic*****~ thank u for being my dear~ u have taught me to be mature~

we just couldnt be together just like u said~ i'm happy that u be honest with me :)

As****~ my forbidden luv...u r the one who nvr give up...u were my cloud~ i was ur rainbow...

but, couldnt be ur rainbow~ u said my rainbow is too shine for ur cloud~

we just couldnt together~ coz of the reason that we have known~

i know that u can find me in next life :)

YuMMy~

I accompanied secil went to finance office~
after that, we got ntg to do at all :D

so, we find a nice place to sit~
BAKERY, yeah we went to bakery :p
and we ate cheese cake :)

so yummy >,<

Forbidden Love~

i still remember the day i left u...it was the day i hurt u... I didn't cry when i left u...but inside of my heart was crying. U never cry in front of myself and that day was the day i saw u cry.

The tears dropped from ur eyes, just like the blood dropped from my heart...both of us know that we could not together...and i know that u were keep trying ur best to prove that we could...

Our relationship was like a war...we were keep trying to win this war...But, at the half way, i gave up~ i'm tired...i just know we couldnt together...because of that i dont want to hurt u more than that...

I know ur feeling just like mine...

U said to me that u lost me just like a bird lost the wings...ur phone have no other things...ur phone is full of my photos...ur eyes is looking at me even u closed ur eyes u still can see me...

I just can loving u in my own way~

I asked u to forget me...but u said u just can not...u will wait for me until i got the one i loves than u just leave me...

At the same time u said these out, i cried~

Babe...both of us know, we could not together in this life...will we be friends or be strangers that know each other well???

Babe, can u find me in next life? will u know where am i?

and...

Can i be ur brides in next life????

For the one who i loved~

I told him to lie to me. he smiled and said "i love u". Out of all ur lies, "I LOVE U" was my favorite. I never know how strong i am...until being strong is the only choice u have. People said love is blind. Yeah...love is blind for those who have eyes...but love is eyes for those who are blind...

I'm sorry if i hurt u...but, i just want u to know that i love u...i really really do...

When i closed my eyes...i see you...i feel you...if i cloud live closing my eyes. Somewhere between our talks, stupid little fights, and all our jokes is where i fell in love with u

Every time i look at the keyboard, i see that U and I are always together. And you broke my heart...but i still love u with all the pieces. I can go left or i can go right. But i have nothing left, and it doesn't feel right

Once upon a time something happened to me. it was sweetest thing that ever could be. It was a fantasy, a dream come true. It was the day I met U. You hurt me more than i deserve, how can u be so cruel? i love u more then u deserve, why am i such a fool?
Wanting u to love me is like wanting a snow in a summer~

How can i forget u when u always on my mind? How can i not want u when ur all i want inside? How can i let u go when i can't see us apart? How can i not love u when u control my heart? Behind my smile is a hurting heart. Behind my laugh, i'm falling apart. Look closely at me and u will see, the person i'm...isn't me...

The worst feeling is not being lonely. It's being forgotten by someone u could not forget...
Should i smile because we are friends or cry because that's all we'll ever be?
I miss ur smile but i miss my own more...thanks for acting like u cared

My DeaR :p

Before, i asked GOD to give me someone special to love. I found u then i lost u. I asked GOD why and he answered, "But my child, the one u asked for asked for somebody else."

I try to be a rainbow in ur's cloud. I wish my eyes could speak what my heart feels for you, coz my lips can lie on what is true. But my eyes couldn't, coz even if i close them i could still see u.

When life put me in tought situations, i will not say why me...i will just say try me.

Can i say i love u today? if not, can i ask u again tomorrow? and the day after tomorrow? and the day after that? coz i'll be loving u, ever single day of life.

I said forever, but u said goodbye...

I hate to see u happy with somebody, but i surely hate it more to see u unhappy with me. One night i looked at the moon and the moon told me, "why dont u leave him if he makes u cry?" and i looked back at the moon and said, "would u ever leave ur sky?"

Sometimes i just wish u can understand my feelings...Sometimes i wish i was blind so i don't have to see u with her...

I know, i'm not alone...coz loneliness is always with me. i wish i could find a way to disappear...

I asked myself, do u even care what i'm going through? do u ever hope it's me when ur phone rings?

You taught me how to love but not how to stop...i miss u...

You might be out of my sight but never out of my mind...

Every night, when i'm alone, when everyone's asleep, i cry coz of missing u...thanks for being tears in my eyes, atleast i can lose you before u lose me...